I don’t know about you, but I spend a large part of my life living under the illusion that I am in control. I never set out to live this way, but subtly I believe this lie until something happens, good or bad, to remind me I am not in control.
Enter fear and anxiety over this unplanned (by my standards) thing, event or opportunity.
I end up wrestling with the Lord and it is usually emotionally, physically and spiritually draining. I must pray, journal and digest Scripture to once again remind myself of The Truth of who is in control and submit all of my fears and anxieties to the One who is not only able to carry this burden, but give me peace, love and joy in return.
The freedom doesn’t come overnight for me, but it does come even as fear and anxiety try to take over. I continually release myself, my family, and my future to the Lord and choose to trust that His plans, timing and purposes are perfect for me (us).
I wave the white flag of surrender and day by day, minute by minute, choose to focus on the present and remember that I am trusting myself and my family to someone who will work all things together for our good as only He can. (Romans 8:28)
I am free to be a child of God and not the boss. I was never created to be the ultimate boss and therefore, I am not very good at it. Sure I still have my role to play as wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, etc., but I am not on my own as I do them.
This makes a big difference.
So I am submitting my resignation, a resignation from a job I took and was never intended to be mine. I choose to trust that He is in control and that He will work all things together for my (our) good. I confess that this is not the first time I have had to submit my resignation, and suspect it will not be my last. (I tend to have to make this declaration at each new stage of life I enter.) But Lord, thank you for being the One who is in control and forgive me for trying to do Your job. It is Yours and You can have it!
Choosing to trust,
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.