The Red Sea – Figuratively, I thought I was already there. See C-H-A-N-G-E. I really thought it (aka troubles, unexpected changes, issues, unwelcome news – read between the lines… not MY plan) had gotten as deep and wide as it could possibly be.
After several weeks of finding out that one, then two, then three therapists were leaving our team, then finding out our sitter (respite) was cutting her hours almost completely – I’d felt very overwhelmed. It couldn’t get worse. Then our son’s school decided they no longer felt capable of servicing him at their rural building (after a lengthy IEP process last Spring brought us to a point of them doing so). With one week left before school started, we were slammed with the decision to either send him to school without any extra support or any accommodations or switch him to another school. This affects him short-term and long-term, and it affects our other children. With only a week to do research, we made the final decision three days before school started and at that point told our boys. We switched both our sons to a different school. Owen took the news very well. Ethan took it hard. He’s older and had made friendships, and he’s a shy guy. It was an incredibly gut-wrenching discussion and I felt so incredibly bad for my son when he told me, with tears in his eyes, this was the worst thing I’ve ever done to him.
We’ve moved past this very bad situation and are embracing their new placement. They are adjusting and so are we. And as I recently said to a friend, adjusting is a step (or two) past shock.
What got me through that was alot of hard leaning on God and some very encouraging words from a friend I’ve never met. A fellow blogger, Joan, sent me these words…
oh my unseen friend, I hear your grief…just wanted you to know that. I have felt all those things. One of those times I felt trapped, like the Israelites – caught between Pharaoh’s army and the Red Sea – two ways to die, no way to live. Then a friend said, “God leads us into dead ends so HE can deliver.”
These words ministered to me so deeply and I will share more in a future post….