Over the past few years, a subtle shift has taken place in my heart. While it happened gradually, I am saddened to realize how worldly my perspective on life has grown.
Ben and I have tried to peacefully accept the difficulties that God continues to hand us. When Ben’s health declined to the point where he had to stop working, we struggled with acceptance. When I began working full-time outside of my children’s school, we wrestled with the reality that our lives looked so vastly different from the rest of the families we knew. When Ben had to surrender his driver’s license, we fought against the tendency to feel sorry for ourselves — and, as I’ve shared before, self-pity is NOT a flattering accessory!
We can easily feel overwhelmed by our circumstances. I long to be home more with my children. I long to take dominion over what used to be my kitchen (but is now a place for everyone else in the family to prepare food, clean up “to the best of their ability” and put kitchen items away “wherever they see fit”). Ben longs to drive, to work, and to pour his energies into meaningful work or service of some kind.
These days, we expend two kinds of energy: the energy to serve well in roles that are neither our preference nor our gifting, and the energy to fight the resultant depression and self-pity that comes from just trying to “get by” in these positions.. We look at our circumstances and try to be content. We look at our circumstances and try to find joy. Perhaps…could it be…that our heart-shift occurred because we’ve been so busy looking at our circumstances that we’ve forgotten to look to God?
This life is not all that there is, nor all that there will be.
Romans 8:18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
1 Corinthians 15:51 – 58 Behold! I tell you a mystery. We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, 52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we shall be changed. 53 For this perishable body must put on the imperishable, and this mortal body must put on immortality. 54 When the perishable puts on the imperishable, and the mortal puts on immortality, then shall come to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.” 55 “O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?” 56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Revelation 7:15 – 17
“Therefore they are before the throne of God, and serve him day and night in his temple; and he who sits on the throne will shelter them with his presence. 16 They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore; the sun shall not strike them, nor any scorching heat. 17 For the Lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd, and he will guide them to springs of living water, and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.”
Oh Lord, please give us an eternal perspective in dealing with the tumult and exhaustion that are the result of years of living with these unpredictable hidden disabilities.
What are some of your favorite verses about eternity?