Every night when I put Jude to bed I pray the blessing of Numbers 6: 24-26 over him:
This ritual reminds me daily of a simple truth. While parenting a child with autism can be a unique experience, it is nonetheless an ordinary experience. Certainly, as parents we face peculiar challenges, and our prayers for Jude may often sound very different than the prayers of parents with neuro-typical children. Even so, our highest ambition for Jude–our greatest desire and joy for him–remains unchanged, even by his autism diagnosis. We want him to know Christ and make him known. We want him to love God with the entirety of his being.
We want him to understand our words, but even more we want him to receive God’s word. We want him to talk to us, but even more we want him to speak with God. We want him to look into our eyes, but even more we want him to seek God’s face.
Above all our hopes and dreams for him, we want Jude to have his greatest good and highest joy–we want him to have God. We want him to live a life wholly given to his Savior.