Seven years ago this week, we withdrew our daughter from public school kindergarten.
I had such high hopes for Cami in the classroom. I loved kindergarten! As inquisitive as my girl was, I just knew she’d love it, too.
It was hard to leave her at the Kiss and Ride spot every day and drive away. I remember leaving the parking lot, weeping and praying that the Holy Spirit would guide her, that God would protect her. My family and friends told me, “It will take time to adjust, but you have to let her go. It’s time to let her grow up.” Yet, in my heart of hearts, I think I knew things were going terribly wrong at school.
Hindsight’s great, isn’t it? Looking back, I can see how God had His arms wrapped around us both as we struggled to find His path for us. I thought it was weakness on my part, this burning desire to keep her home with me. I thought it was misbehavior on her part, the temper tantrums before and after school and the frowny face notes that came home with her.
I know now that she was being bullied—physically attacked and verbally threatened—daily by a little boy in her class. I know now that she couldn’t understand many of the auditory instructions given to her by the adults in her world. I know now that Cami could neither see nor hear properly, and that her brain had to reorient after she had both eye and ear surgeries in that kindergarten year.
I know now how magnificently and thoroughly God answered those mommy heart cries of mine as I drove out of the school parking lot every day. I know how He protected her, and guided her, and loved her when I didn’t know how.
We’ve grown a lot in the last seven years. We’ve found our groove with homeschooling. We’ve found a way to more than just survive each day and the challenges that come our way. We’ve learned how funny auditory processing struggles can be and how fully God redeems and restores misunderstandings when loving each other is of the highest value in a family.
We’ve found abundant springs from our Father in this land He’s given us to make fertile. There’s fruit everywhere I look these days.
And it is glorious.
Thanking Jesus for His amazing grace in our lives,