My son (age 16, Aspergers and Learning Disabilities) and daughter and I were walking around the mall last week when I noticed a “Now Hiring” sign in a game store. “You could work there,” I told my son. He replied, “Mom, do you want me out of the house or something? You keep mentioning places I could work.” Oops. I didn’t realize how often I mention jobs or careers to my son.
I think it is the sneaky sneakers of anxiety. They sneak up on me, into my heart and mind and, eventually, out of my mouth. Unless I am actively identifying my anxiety and presenting these concerns to the Lord (with thanksgiving), I become anxious, particularly about my son’s future. I wonder what kind of job he will be able to do, how he will be successful, how he will handle stress and chaos, who he will find to marry, and many other future issues that I have no control over.
On the surface, I am doing my best to educate him, socialize him, and help him overcome his learning disabilities. On the surface, I am not worried about tomorrow but there is an undercurrent that I think all parents have that threatens to suck us into the riptide of worry and anxiety. Then, suddenly, I find that I have “borrowed trouble” from tomorrow. I have allowed the sneaky sneakers to catch up to me.
I really don’t know the answers to these questions and I have no idea of what he may end up doing for a living. The possibilities sometimes seem more limited than they are for my neurotypical daughter. But they are not! We have a God who doesn’t know the meaning of the word impossible. We have a God who promises us that, if we present our requests to Him, with thanksgiving, he will keep those sneaky sneakers away and guard our hearts and give us peace instead of anxiety. What an amazing, loving God we serve!
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:6-7