As parents of special needs kids, it is easy to get bogged down with therapy and numerous additional appointments. Tending our child’s heart may be swept aside. Not that this is our intention. But there is only so much emotional and physical energy each day.
I felt convicted to pray consistently for God to work in Jonathan’s heart. Not elaborate or laborious praying. Just simple dialogue. I began asking Him for ways to bring up His name naturally to Jonathan. To share one attribute of His character that I see reflected in his heart as well. Weeks went by. I felt peaceful about the way Jonathan began to ask questions and open up more freely with his own thoughts about God.
In the van after carpool one recent afternoon, Jonathan’s questions turned to heaven. What is it like? What if we get lost up there? How will we find God? I carefully explained that the wonderful thing about God is that He knows just where to look and find us. We don’t have to look for Him. He comes to us. Jonathan pondered that. I shared that God is building a special house, just for Jonathan. Sunlight paled for a moment compared to the bright smile that exploded on his face. Really? A home of my own? Do I have to share it? I smile, not missing the quiet thoughts tumbling around his mind. At six, he is the oldest of my four children. He often covers his ears with both hands and shouts we have too many children in our house. He expresses in those moments sentiments I dare not admit out loud, but think quite regularly myself.
Yes, Jonathan, a home all your own, and you only share it if you want.
So how do I get to heaven, he wants to know. I respond that when you die, if you love Jesus and have asked Him to live inside your heart, you go to heaven to be with Jesus forever. Oh. He immediately follows with, have I done that yet? Not yet. Can I do it now?
Absolutely! So he did. And my precious son is now my little brother in Christ.
My prayers continue as I ask God to grow my son’s love for Him and His truth. May all our children choose to walk in the truth and purity and righteousness of our Father. And may He grace us to do the same.